Saturday, August 26, 2006

ohh man i feel so damned sick now lahhs. wahhhhs i have a effing headache and a fever0. bleahxD i just changedd my skinn as well- yayys. i like this one!! finally- something that at least looks VAGUELY okk. :D anw i dunno why i said those things suddenly, all i noe is that i had been seeing her turn her back on me too many times and well- the angeR just bubbled up out of nowhere. i was looking thru our old neoprints and i realised that before the june hols- we were actl quite ok with one anuther- not best of friends but amiable enuff all the same. :] i suppose IPW has affected my relationship with peiyu and the rest- cuz for IPW it was just dangedd endless fights and disagreements- peiyu even broke downn one day at a meeting. SORRY to all of you and endless amounts of regret that we arent what we were before. i dunnoe why but somehow i miss the 'old days' but at the same time- i finally see how you guys have changed- or maybe this is really how you REALLY were all the time just that i cldnt see it then. ohwells whats done is done and for me and mengjie and rania and the rest- WELL its probably irreversible.


hmm. what mengjie said actl made me rethink our past. were we really best friends before? she actl thought of me as her bf? ohwells i never knew that and cuz of alot of things that ive been thru- i suppose i dont really believe it now. why did it even come to this anw? one day i was talking to mengjie- then the next me and sarah agrreed to ignore her. (cuz she was ignoring us) then the next she was talking to us and i was actl responding somewhat ok-ly then the next hate just overtook my senses and i decided to push past her rudely and start off this weird 'hate FYI you aint my bestie anymore' thingum. why? i suppose its partly my fault and partly the other party's fault lahhs. hm. i think i shld apologise for anything that i may have said that cld have been biased, wrongfully diirected, or did.


SHOUTOUTS:


mengjie: hm. sorry if you ever thought that the post about your best friend was abt you- it wasnt. anw- just think thru it and try and see who has been telling u the truth. im not saying u and that person cant be best of friends- but think through what she has done to you behind your back, when it wasnt even your fault, and in front of others. wells- maybe we were once best friends, i wldnt noe, but now thats like something long gone. so sorry for everything wrongfully done- so yah. u can continue to hate me now. :]


peiyu: uhm. ok this shout out is abt all those thhings that i did and didnt do during IPW- like procrasinating and joking at all the wrong times- i mean YAH maybe being optimistic then wasnt such a gd idea after all. wells i made u wait for the presentation slides- so sorry kaes. i dun really care whether u believe or not lahhs, but i really had a reason- a reason u just refused to believe, even when i asked u to call up my DAD- my witness- to ask him why i hadnt given u the slides till like so late. sorry for all the inconveniences and if we had ever laughed before at something- it isnt happening now and probably never will again. rmb how u wrote once in ur blog how we were procrastinating during a meeting but having me arnd was fun cuz i made u laugh- WHOA im getting corny- but HAHA thats probably a lie now. much regrets joining IPW with you guys, cuz if IPW hadnt happened, we wld still probably be ok with each other- no quarrels. :] my bad- SO SORRY.


rania: hey. look u probably thought i was faking everytime i spoke to u- u had this stupid notion that i hated u and i was faking to like u. cuz u thought i hate u then u dun like moi right? so anw i DID NOT hate u. i didnt even DISLIKE u. u were a friend that i thought was really okk and all but hey in the end, probably it was cuz mengjie told u lotsa things that i agreed with her on, and then this happened. maybe u still think this is like really FAKE and all but still. u shld rethink like why did i agree with it. cuz mengjie was also my gd friend then and it was out of pure consolation then i agreed with her. YO. im not fake kaes, if i really felt that way- hated you, in fact- i would have like told u or at least showed it by ignoring u or insulting you. lmao :[ so anw whatever conceptions of fakeness u have- i dun really care but if by agreeing with what ur bestfriend said had hurt you or wdv, im really sorry. :]


not looking here for forgiveness here- just trying to show what really happened. that time we were supposed to hold a conference call to rania, me sarah mengjie and rania, to clear up all the lies and such- to confront each others faults and stuff- but it never happened. u guys were really such good friends before, but now it has akl changed- i dun noe why this has happened, why? im still in the loop. well i really regret not holding that call- if any of u like reads this right- i really think that we shld talk things out- cuz evryone has their own side of things and by believing only one person many things are like faked and cant be believed. we seriously need to talk things out, and like tell each other their faults and let us change- i didnt want to loose friends like u guys at first, but if u guys are really who i think u are right now, and not the ppl i really liked at the beginning of the year, then this is of no use. to talk things out clearly and stop hating each other- HAH just a mirage. probably u guys will just continue to not talk to us. BLAH. dun really care, but there are some things that need to be clarified. especially with rania and mengjie. the rania and mengjie thingum not only includes me though- sarry too.


meL- rah: erh- do u still wanna friend them- im still lost here.


our friendship from before is most definitely lost now. all thats left is memories- both good and bad of the times we had spent together, and we didnt hate anyone then. ohwells its like SO over now. :[ this feeling is like a ship without a sail- can we ever be the same again?


i dont noe


i dont really care


i just regret


losing u guys


such gr8 friends


before


because


of some stupid


meaningless


reason


IM SO SORRY


OK- now end of all these emo-ified stuff-


on to better thingums. DA VINCI CODE the movie? - OFFICIALLY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!! by the gods its so SLOW moving and the directing sucks- i barely watched past the madonna of the rocks part before i fell fast asleep on the sofa. lmao its so stupid please. DAN BROWN i feel your pain- ur book rocks like hell man- its so brilliantly written and stuff- but YET the movie is just a pure INSULT for ur book- im catholict but STILL im supporting u, cuz such BRILLIANt writers are really hard to come by these days. :DD love your books MR. BROWN!!!


ok top 10 best authors


1.DAN BROWN
2. J.K ROWLING
3. J. R. R
YESTERDAY♥